It’s been a hard two days. Everything I do is tinted with your absence. Because this wasn’t what it was supposed to be. I think you’re getting frustrated with me being frustrated and it scares me. I just want everything to go back to normal. I myself want to get back to normal. I haven’t been myself lately. I have been in an awful mood, on the verge of tears every moment of the day, stressed out. I have been sleeping terribly, unable to fall asleep, crying myself to sleep, waking up two hours earlier than I’m supposed to, and falling asleep again only to wake up terribly tired and unprepared for the day ahead. I’ve been lonely. I’ve been so, so lonely and it hurts.
The only thing keeping me going is the hope that in a week, when you’re finished with school and I’ve gotten in a better mood, we can get back to normal and we can be together again. I’d give anything to be with you cuddled up in bed.
